Where I am, I don't know, I'll never know, in the silence you don't know, you must go on, I can't go on, I'll go on. ~Samuel Becket
It's bad tonight...my nerves are shattered. Just talk to me. I'll make it through the night.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay
These two quotes pretty much sum up my day. This wasn't a good day. My daughter had a 1 1/2 hour long manic rage today....complete with screaming, crying and irrational thoughts. She has been "on the fence" for most of the week...it was all initially triggered on Tuesday when the school bus driver was an entire hour late to pick up the kids due to a lot of snow and bus problems. The kids all stood outside in the snow/cold for over a half an hour before they went back to their homes. She called me at work and I called the school and the bus company. It was all too much for her. She has been irritable and manic ever since. Today it all culminated into a huge rage. She hasn't had one like that in a couple of years.....Luckily her older sister was at a friend's house at the time. It allowed me to focus on calming my daughter down without having to calm them both down.... My older daughter gets freaked out by the rages....I do too, but I can't show it 'cause I'm the mom. There are a million words of encouragement out there...the sun will come out tomorrow....this too shall pass....blah, blah, blah....this sucks....there is no way to make it stop sucking....things will get better, but the manic rages will ALWAYS suck....I love her...she's my girl...the manic rages still suck....the one thing that makes me smile right now is that I just thought "Hey, suck rhymes with duck!" And that folks, makes things a little more ducky....